Revisit and random thoughts.

Pondstar ah Pondstar.
Its an funny feeling revisiting this very first site where I first started scribbling a little of my thoughts, feelings, pieces of memories. I was re-reading my old entries, way back in 2004 when I was writing about hwa chong girls which I saw on bus trips to camp and army regulars who pisssed me off during my army days. I remember I used to cringe when I read through some of the stuff that I wrote. Hah.

Two years. Thats a long time. Enough for people to clock 1500km if you run 2.4 km everyday. Enough for people to achieve considerable academic success. Enough for some to have a few girlfriends and maybe get a couple of fucks. I dunno.

I was thinking about how much I have changed after JC.
Matured? Nah.
Cynical. Yes.
A little more disillusioned about the society and people.
Pondstar.
Still the same old me, no grandeur dreams of becoming some entrepreneur or saving the world.
Wishing only to be a small shining star in a small pond.

Life is one fucking tiring rat race.
We compete with our friends and our imaginary foes for cheese.
We erect mazes for ourselves to run around in. When we can just relax and chill and enjoy some cheap cheese together. Maybe I am just a lost, disgusted rat in this convoluted and relentless race.